Tuesday, January 31, 2006
resolve
i am being what i feel like being and doing what i feel like doing
and i feel selfish and unsure but these are not things that matter to me much as of late.
everyone else has gone their own kind of crazy, and i will go mine for awhile. but lately i have considered things, and i think all this craziness is born out of sadness.
for me, this could turn out badly, really badly. but i don't care, when i feel like it's something i have to do.
i feel like i can always say
i've crawled home from worse than this.
still i hope that things can be good for me, and the people i care about. i hope things will be better. this is always the hard part, the beginning. how awkward.
and i feel selfish and unsure but these are not things that matter to me much as of late.
everyone else has gone their own kind of crazy, and i will go mine for awhile. but lately i have considered things, and i think all this craziness is born out of sadness.
for me, this could turn out badly, really badly. but i don't care, when i feel like it's something i have to do.
i feel like i can always say
i've crawled home from worse than this.
still i hope that things can be good for me, and the people i care about. i hope things will be better. this is always the hard part, the beginning. how awkward.